27.02.2009 Friday.
This few days, i feel obsolutely moody..maybe becos of his back bone issues. He admitted hospital for MRI checked and advise by doctor that he have to do a lot of swimming to improve his back bone. Other sports are strictly NO. I feel upset is becos he is not only stubborn, he is selfish too. I know his wish to climb up to KK mountain but when things turn out like this, he can't force himself to go up there. He always think his back bone is not that serious is only the doctor exaggarate the matter. But he never think, what if he become worst after the mountain climing, what will happen to us if there is anything happen to him ?? He never think of this, so this call selfish. In his mind, we are over worry and try to stop him to achieve his dream.
Everyone have a dream, did everyone achieve them? Why they are not achievable? Some becos, they are not really work into it & some becos their current condition does not allow them to achieve it. How would this people feel?? Dissapointed? Yes, of course they do. But after sometime, they might think luckily they never insist becos they might have sacrifice others to achieve their dream.
So, we have to measure which are more important. Dream or health? If the person does not achieve his/her dream..this is only affected themself. But if you do not have a good health, you will affected your loved one around you & your family?? Which is more important?
To me, he is such a mature and understanding man. But when come to his health issue, he is so stubborn which really make me feel frustrated. Sigh....
Since I can't change his decision, I will have to train myself to be more independant. I've to train myself to handle the family all by myself becos Im really worry this bad time suddenly happen and Im not prepare for it. Im not being negative, but no one knows what will happen in future.
Moody..day
